Poetry Grind Entertainment Presents: Dear Love...
Dear Love,
You failed me. At a young age I trusted in you to guide me through
I believed in your presence in my life and I put my faith in you
From the beginning you gave me hope and protection
I was in good hands and love you were a blessing
I found comfort around you and happiness
Life without you didn’t seem to exist
I was confident and proud to have you by my side
I was in lust to your beautiful lies
I wrapped my arms around what I thought was all mine
Even in my childish mind I was betrayed by your demise
It didn’t take long for me to see your real true colors
The hurt you caused in my heart made me tremble over words with a stutter
To love so freely was now becoming a fear
Because I was learning what it felt like to cry real tears
That unconditional love that I once trusted
Was now feeling more like broken glass from the windows that you busted
And when you even tried to secure my trust again, I hesitated
Too broken from the perfect love, I thought was forever I was tainted
Born into the lies of what I thought love would be like
Love melted my only vision with its spite
The loneliness, heartache, and the misunderstanding
Became too much for me and more so demanding
I would never understand why you chose to hurt me
Was I not good enough, or did I become your enemy
Even so young in age the pain was insight
Nothing to this day still doesn’t feel right
To lose someone so precious to my growth
I vowed to never be so free in love again, I took an oath
You took the only love that matter the most
No more goodnights, no more fun times, no more feeling whole
To see him walk out those doors
The blood stains on my heart of knowing he didn’t love us no more
He didn’t care that we struggled when he was gone
He didn’t care that we thought we were the ones in the wrong
He didn’t show up to anymore birthdays, holidays, or special occasions
He just left with no explanation
To a child that pain is unbearable to even imagine
To feel like the love, you gave to him must have been stagnant
For him to leave with no other communication
Love you must have hated me to plan this type of vacation
Wanderlust to the world and jealous of any attractions
Love I really don’t understand your actions
You wrecked my whole illusion of you
I tried hard to understand the confusion of you
I was raped from the experience of what I thought love could be
Love you were becoming my worst enemy
How could you let so much pain run through me
I could never understand how love ruined me
I was masqueraded in the presence of my own thoughts
Faking to make it, because love had me lost
To scared to be vulnerable again to someone’s lies
I promised to myself no one else would ever see my cries
Because love you hurt me to my core
And though the bruises maybe gone my heart is still sore
Sincerely,
MsNikk